well?
No. and I’m happy to say most of it isn’t. But this is a good thought.
Damn.
well?
No. and I’m happy to say most of it isn’t. But this is a good thought.
Damn.
I’ve been feeling like my life’s been routine lately. Looking back on these past couple of months, I feel like a robot.
I feel stuck. Trapped in a way. I’ve been tending to my day job a lot. School keeps dragging on. I feel like I’m making no progress and need a change. I see a lot of my friends keep on moving up, going places and doing different things. I sometimes wonder what it’d be like if I were somewhere else. If I could have gone away.
I guess it’s just real easy to focus on the negative. The things you wanna change. I know I should make the most of what I’ve got, but isn’t it a problem when you start to “settle”? I don’t wanna be stuck here, and it sucks a lot since I can’t find much to change. But I guess I’ve just gotta keep working and keeping those close to me close by. After all, they are the ones who keep you going.
It’s been 10 months since my last blog. Almost a year now. It’s been a long year for us. A lot can happen in just 10 small months.
I can really feel it now. I feel it. We’ve had our share of laughs, cries, passionate moments and irritations. I really want to seal the bond. Our friendship. We never ask anything more from each other. We make our worlds go round. The feeling is there.
Who am I to judge her actions? She has her freedom and I have mine. But I know we both feel it. And it feels oh so right.
I can’t complain. I’m hella thankful for all the people in my life. I know it’s Thanksgiving time, and we’re all being extra noticeable of those little things. This past weekend, it felt hella good to reconnect with all of my old friends. The kids that get me and understand me, know where I’ve been, stuck with me. We don’t judge each other, we don’t seclude ourselves. We accept each other for who we are. We were free to do whatever we wanted to do in the most comfortable of environments. We were free to bring whoever we wanted to bring who meant the most to us. It was just a good union.
I don’t know who I would be without these kids, or where I would be. I’m most especially thankful for her. Even though we don’t got a large history, I know we take this pretty seriously. We aren’t here just to play games or just to have someone to have someone. We really are interested in each other. I’m ready for whatever the future holds for us. I know we’ll be really close even if something happens down the road. I know we’ll forever hold this bond. That’s why we’re waiting. We’re just having a good time. We don’t know where it’s gonna go, but we have hope.
Nothing else matters in the world but the support of your family and friends. You can’t live without ‘em, it’s true. It’s cliche but it’s life. Love is life.